Messed up

I am having a sense of desperation now .. for some reason for some days I have not been able to get to something which I want get to .......... however hard I try somehow something in me stops me from doing it !!!...... what is it I really dunno . is it the fear of losing the existing state of harmony? or is it wanting to have the cake and eat it too.......somebody help me out of this messI am in right now ...... I wanna break free ........unshackle all the chains break all barriers.........

Smart Work???

Offlate there is has been a lot of debate between my colleagues on the Virtues of Smart work and Hard work. Simply put smart "work" is the ability to do the some work with the minimum efforts Vis a vis hard work .. which usually implies that ur putting ur arse out to achieve some results. But somehow this debate on Smart work veered to yet another discussion ........ Picture this .. I am assigned some work to do which is really new to be me .. and I will learn a lot from doing this work ......But I instead of doing the Work .. I "smartly" push this work to another colleague of mine who knows this work better and will complete the same work faster than me. Now the Question is this Smart work ?? Well DEpends on perpective ( my favourite ).

For if I look from my angle .. I have got the work done at the best Possible place and by the best person there by enchancing my own people management skills and improving my companies 's efficiency... Really ? Someone else will ask "did'nt you miss the chance to learn something new here ?".I mean people management is imperative and perhaps the most important skill one needs to learn..... but in doing this .. haven't you missed the chance to learn some new Technology or some new workcycle process?

This is exactly the Predicament which say a new CEO of a company faces. Do I look take a long term view and let my people add "real" value and bring a steady rate of Growth or else Do I take a Short term view and ask people to produce results ASAP and bring out a Stellar quarterly result?.

In the end , guess there is a thin line of Difference between the Smart work and hard work and I truely believe that the way to should be work hard but smartly :)

Optimism!!

The B school which I wanted to join so desperately gave out it's results today .. or rather yesterday by sending out emails to all the Admits.....and u guessed right.. I dint get any such emails/sms .. but wat is surprising is that they did not send a reject email either leaving us all ( I am thinking there will b many like me ) in the lurch over the weekend .......... the least they wud have done is send an reject email!!!

but they are Giving people like me a Ray of Hope ........ Even after all the Admit mails have been handed.. we as a bunch are hanging to the fact that they ( the Ad-com) did not send a reject.......... It is amazing how people are optimistic people are especially for certain things they desperately want to make happen .......reminds me of the famous hindi saying .. "doobte hue ko Tinke ka sahara dena "........
Anyway I guess it is time for me move on and think of my future plans.. coz the more I think over it ....... the more less optimistic I am of getting an Admit....(If this Sounds confusing .. forgive my state of mind)

Music, Songs and Nostalgia

Certain things in life remind of us somethings. It could some smell, something which we see or something which hear.... In my case somehow .. certain songs/sounds remind me of certain periods of my life. Picture this

1) THe moment I hear the songs from Dil Se .. I am transported to my first year in the college .. especially the ragging period of 2months .. I heard the Dil Se songs everywhere and anywhere over those 2 months which I call sweet hell .. I still I can remember me dancing on the Chiaya Chiaya Number on my freshers Party day ... ( It is a different issue that my friends did not perceive what I was doing as a dance )

2) Next when I hear the songs from the Movie "Mujhe Kuch kehna hai".. I am transported to the days of my industrial training in Vizag.. why ?? Just about every single day in the 4 months..my roomy used to wake me up with the songs from movie .. ( well dint have the money 2 buy any other cassette.. and my roomy had to listen to songs while gyming in the morning..)

3) The songs from the movie Gharshana( telegu) transport me back to my days in the US . Coz I listened to those songs on every long drive which I went for in the US .........

and not just songs .......there are many more sounds like the Sound of the old Petrol Autorickshaws( Not the LPG ones which ply now they sound different) reminds me of my native place .. coz up until my college freshmen days .. I had only travelled in an AutoRickshaws if I was visiting my native place

Workings of an Idle brain

The title cant be more oxymoronish........ how can something be idle but still work ? but it is the the human brain Afterall ... it is practically never idle....in fact it can never be idle.... it just needs to keep thinking something........

Sample this.. did not have to go to work today since the Cauvery riots were supposed to happen in Bangalore .So I thought let me relax and idlize brain....... but then my mind travelled all the across the globe to the US in just a matter of seconds..

HEre is how

Start : Cauvery issue -> Cauvery a hot issue in the mysore City -> Mysore city sounds familar -> Aah the Beautiful My Infosys Campus -> Infosys , my Ex-employer -> the Day I was told to go to US by my Manager -> My first Flight travel -> my journeys and Drives in the US -> Tring Tring-> END ..the phone buzzes and I am back to reality ... the phone is from my office colleague asking me if he needs to get to office today .....

Relationship fundas

Met up with a school friend of mine after a long hiatus . The usual Nostalgia gripped us where we laughed and poked fun at each other for the silly and now unimaginable things which we did in school.... ( Like playing cricket for the whole day after the first period attendence ) .. All was honky dory until my friend asked "how many relationships have been in all these years ?"

The Question forced me to look for answers to certain questions which I have so far avoided to the Hilt like why the heck did I not get into a "true" relationship in all these years of my adulthood......Whom do I blame for this single State of mine ??( The human in you always looks for scapegoats )

The answer I find lies deep within myself. I guess I need to blame ( aah.. here comes the scapegoat) the risk averse mindset which I have . I have had great friends with whom I have spend some really great moments and wanted to extend these friendships to something special Relationships .... but somehow.. The fear that what happens if she says the dreaded "no" .. the fear that I lose whatever good time I am having now if I take the next step .. meant that I maintained the Status Quo and waited for something to happen !!!!!!!! rather than going for the Kill...... Only later did I realise that it is only "me" who can make "it" and noone else ....... All I had to do was go with attitude "Come what may I will face it" ......but that is way it is ........ . someone else has made it happen and I am still the Relationship status :Single person who finds solace in saying "Don't care the world"

Born in the Wrong Year ??

I was not a very big believer in the Astrology and the Sun Sign predictions which are churned by the Newspapers and newsites Week after week. But seems like there is some truth to all this "Your destiny is decided by the Stars and Planetary positions when you were born" and the Year you were born if you were to follow Chinese Astrology

How was I convinced after being a non-Believer for so long . Well the salaries which fresh grads of out IITs RECs and IIMs are drawing in 2007 placement season have got me thinking. It has been 5 yrs since my placement season and I remember the highest salary paid out in my placement batch was about half the highest Salary being paid this year by my college. 100% growth in 5 yrs Flat. On the other hand, my own salary is grown by around 150% over this period and but on a smaller base and hence my Salary is now only slightly higher than the person who will work under me with Zilch Work Experience..... aah ..the smaller base .. Did I deserve that smaller base ??

My take?I was born in 1981( the Year of Rooster as per Chinese calender ) ..and so graduated in 2001-02 .. the year in which the stars of the US economy and consequenently the stars the Indian IT companies werent doing great. and so just to get a job and to be able to hang around that job was an achievement.....and my peers where just searching for "any" job which takes and keeps them for long. But someone who was born in year 1986 .. now has on an average 3 job offers even before he out of college !!!! aah he is plain lucky u would say .. but what is luck if not the tricks of Stars and Planets?

A Tribute to LM

Yesterday was a rather sad in my life. My first project manager in my professional life met with an accident and passed away. When I heard the news, for a moment I was thunderstruck not knowing how to react ....but now have regained my composure and I believe for all that she has done for us, she deserves a rich tribute.

LM was amazing technical manager who knew the nitty gritties of technology even as she was managing a 18 ppl project. If one hand we admired her technical know how, on the other hand we were astounded by her down to earth behavoiur and attitude. Also not the one to panic ( except of course when we had the so called monthly QA audits for CMM level ) and always calm about things.

She was one of few who inpsired me to continue in the my software company after having been disillusioned with the way IT industry works. Her hard work and dedication won my project the "best Managed Project" for year 2003-2004. I can go on and on about this wonderful person........ but cant really put my mind together as of now since I am yet to fully recover from the shock...
My god rest her sole in peace.

thank you LM all the help you have extended to me in the short time we worked together