Messed up

I am having a sense of desperation now .. for some reason for some days I have not been able to get to something which I want get to .......... however hard I try somehow something in me stops me from doing it !!!...... what is it I really dunno . is it the fear of losing the existing state of harmony? or is it wanting to have the cake and eat it too.......somebody help me out of this messI am in right now ...... I wanna break free ........unshackle all the chains break all barriers.........